Let's say 6 months. How would you change what you are going with your life? It's a question I think we could ask ourselves everyday and I think we could get a lot out of it. To many times we get wrapped up in "life" crap. And yes I mean crap. Most things we concern ourselves with doesn't really matter. I think we all could learn a lot but asking ourselves this every now and then. Life IS really short and to many of us are unhappy with what we are doing and also ungrateful.
Give me your thoughts on the matter. Would love to hear you you think. :)
I was always somewhat excessively driven and self-absorbed, and various things have roused me from this for brief periods of time, but I eventually had a lasting "wake-up" call that really changed the way I approach life.
I'll never forget it: it was a random Tuesday afternoon, I was in an awful mood due to having to study for a difficult exam and lover trouble, and I got a call from my mother about the fact that her cancer had come back. The first time around, it affected me of course, but it coming back so quickly and so aggressively really caught me off guard. I can remember with such clarity the experience of sitting there sobbing, thinking about the fact that I'd spent the entire day so upset over such stupid trivial things, and having the realization that you can live your whole life that way if you're not careful.
Of course this caused an existential crisis for me, as I re-evaluated my priorities in a big way and decided to cancel ALL of my plans indefinitely. My friends totally thought I'd gone mad--and to be perfectly honest, I think they still think I'm mad for taking a year off from my life! It was/is so out of character for me, but it's been a truly amazing experience--I've really taken the opportunity to savour all the amazing things in life that are so easily overlooked and missed in the midst of keeping up with the business of living. You know, smelling the roses and all.
I realise my choice was kind of drastic and not something everyone could do (I feel very lucky to have had this option) and I'm not going to say there haven't been moments when I've regretted the decision--but as cliché as it sounds, once you have a fundamental shift in the way you see the world, it becomes integral to who you are and I'm so thankful for the ways in which this experience has shaped me as a person.
I'm at a point now where I'm excited to move forward in my life, and I think the decision I made was not one many people would have made, but it has made all the difference. (Why yes, I am going cliché-crazy, now with Frost references! ;-))
So, to answer your question, I'd be doing exactly what I'm doing. :)
Well, first I spent a few months with my mother, but she actually had a transplant procedure that helped her a lot...so I spent a few months traveling. I was planning to spend another few months abroad but I realised whilst spending time at home for the holidays that I can do that anytime and I don't really know how long I have to spend with loved ones (particularly my mother) so spending time with family has been my top priority in the new year. It has been wonderful! :)
Permalink Reply by Mindy on February 11, 2009 at 12:22pm
With only six months left, it's hard not to be completely selfish and say I'd take off to Paris and live it up the best I could. But there's soooooo many things I'd want to do for not just myself, but those I'd be leaving behind. I'd want to spend those moments with them because they are so fleeting and would be over so very soon. And with my family so far, it'd be hard to not just pick up my entire life and relocate back to Pennsylvania for my final months, even if that means leaving my boyfriend behind here in NC.
This is a pretty easy one as I've all ready thought I could die once before. Surgery and later chemo are really really great at reshuffling one's priorities. I made a list (which I still have) of all the things I needed to do just in case.
My basic plan was to first road trip across the country then say fuck it and travel to a foreign country. Any foreign country. Keeping that up until I was on my last legs.
I hate to say I'd quit Graduate School because i really love it but if i only had 6 months to live stressing over my thesis would just seem irrelevant. So quit school, travel across Europe, tell my family and friends how much they mean to me, and do all the things i always wanted to do but never found the time (Bungee-jumping, dying my hair purple, etc).
Tattoos, sex, concerts, performances, read as much as I possibly can, write as much as I can and publish what I've written so that an idea of me will live forever.
i probably wouldn't do anything drastically different. i'd probably let go of my "morals" and have a lot more casual sex. i'd probably blog about it (my terminal experience + sex). i would probably travel more even though I can't afford it.. who cares?
I like to think I would quit college, take out a loan, and use it to travel. Not just travel, but complete items on my 'list'. Zip line through a rain forest, go hot air ballooning, be a passenger in a race car. Really daring/adventerous things that I don't do now.