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11-13-08
Listening to Bessie Smith has made me extremely melancholy. Right now I am listening to St. Louis Blues and I am feeling her. My mans got a heart like a rock cast in the sea. I'm feeling blue-sy all these words/lyrics are in my head ready to burst. Ready to be sung I'm not sure if they need a swig of gin in order to let me tongue loosen it's just a shame that alcohol knows no barriers and sometimes word vomit comes out that I wish I never said. I can't feign by saying I was drunk because I remember it all too clearly.
Me Trying to be Bessie smith:
Tell me sweet nothings in my ear even though I know they're lies I'll keep coming. Running to you. Tell me lies for I've lost my very mind. Tell me that you love me even though I know that you have another, the wedding band on your finger that gleamed that first night we made love made me realize I was the fool. Used and betrayed. Just as you used and betrayed the sacrament of marriage, your wife stands with you her eyes glowing with love. She could never understand or imagine the foul beast that was within you. Nor could she imagine that you would indeed get such a slip of a girl. baby the hardest thing is realizing that I fell for the wrong man, you. Tell me lies baby and I'll come running. Tell me I'm the fool and I'll believe you. Tell me that you love me and I'll run away from you. But baby keep telling me lies for you know I'll always come back like a dog faithful to its master. Tell me lies because you know you have that power over me.



11-12-08
Song of the moment: Gravity by John Mayer
currently doing: Watching the wind blow through the trees
What I should be doing: Going to class and discussing Walt Whitman
what am I doing here:...uhhhhh



7-24-08
For those of you interested in contacting me outside of here I'm finally comfortable with giving my myspace link: Myspace.com/whatsthedillyyo


6-24-08
What do you do when you realize your nightmare is sitting next to you during your ethnic studies class? What do you do when he taps your shoulder and you feel that sinking feeling in your gut like your an animal trapped against the wall? I didn't want to leave because i knew that would mean that he won and that I was frightened of him but the truth is I'm not frightened of him. The moment of fear is gone and past and I am sick of his smiling rat face at me. I'm through hiding and I'm through letting my life get fucked up because of it.
"why can't you say no?"
Now I am.




6-17-08

RIP Cyd Charisse! You were a wonderful dancer and a beautiful woman! God Bless and rest with the angels!





1) Borrows clothes and ipod and doesn't say taht she's borrowing it.
2) Takes your favorite top and thinks that you gave it to her and when you tell her no she still decides to keep it.
3) Brings guy home even after other roommates say no
4) Has this whole entitlement thing in her neurosis that because she went through so much that she's entitled t better treatment. Doesn't work that way!
-Urghh!! I'm stil lirritated about the whole situation and not only that but I don't know anyone that needs a room for the summer as well as next year. Pray for me!