CONFORMING TO INDIVIDUALITY

This is a purely one dimensional view of who I believe I am, randomly added because of this moment and this time and right now thinking about it and happening to be on this page. I do honestly believe this though.

In terms of who I am - it can be explained through an episode of Winnie the Pooh, of all things, watched many many years ago as a little toddler, I don't know how I remember it when I forgot so many other events, but this stuck out in my head and has always remained a part of the memory.

You don't need to be familiar with the characters to know the story, but basically I feel like I'm a little bit like Ee yore, which is the typecast gloomy donkey in the show, the one that's always forlorn and depressing, especially when contrasted with the bright jumpy cheery characters of the show. During this one particular episode, where Piglet, one of the other characters, spots Ee yore sitting outside on the hill, in the dark, just staring at the sky. He feels sorry for Ee yore, looking all alone and sad. He gathers up the rest of the gang, and they talk about it and he suggests that maybe each of them could try and cheer Ee yore up. They all attempt to, bringing Ee yore around to do things that makes them happy and cheers them up. But it all goes to no avail and Ee yore remains as monosyllabic and mournful as he always is. Piglet is upset that their efforts were in vain and expresses his disappointment to Ee yore. Ee yore then corrects Piglet and says that he isn't sad or unhappy, he was there alone looking up at the sky that night because he was happy. He takes Piglet out to the hill and they stare at the sky and it's a splash of colorful sunsets and magic.

Basically, I might be quiet and I might stare at the sky a lot alone, but I'm pretty happy.