Thats What Friends Are For.....

Ugh. Once again I find myself disappointed in people. I feel that people I call my friends aren't acting like friends. Maybe I need to stop trying so hard, and just realize I'm the bad guy. Wait, scratch that. I try, they don't.

I am moving to California on September 18. Right now I'm in Canada helping Frank get prepared and quitting the job I just started. My plan was/is to be back in Michigan around the weekend of the 11th. So I asked some friends of mine back there if they could possibly come hang out one more time. Response: they are a little booked up. Again I find myself wondering if I should really even try anymore. Three years I was gone, and in those three years not one of my old best friends came to see me. As hard as it was back then to see them go off and visit other friends, I slowly got over it. Now it's, I don't give two shits anymore. My real friends will stay in contact, and my real ones will hopefully come visit (being Los Angeles is a 4 hour plane ride and little more expensive than a tank of gas) When I come home for Christmas, effort will not be made on my part. Please don't refer to me as a "best friend" if you don't mean it, because being too "booked up" to come see me for one day or two, really hurts my feelings and isn't what a true friend would do. I'm trying to plan what do for my last weekend in this time zone, really starting to consider just staying in Canada for it. When I do go back to Troy, I will hang out with the people that are there. Despite homework they may have, I'm sure they will make some time to see me once more.

Some days I just want to tell you to stop being so self centered. Grow up you're an adult now.